With the last 11 months behind, I have been thinking about all the many moments that have made up the last many months. Conversations I have had, people I've shared laughter and tears with, new friends that have walked into my life, visiting with friends and family and seeing the love in their eyes but the fear as well... when there was a time where we were hoping and praying that I would survive my diagnosis. Then there is the thoughts of survivorship and all that comes along with the meaning of surviving hardship, difficulty or overcoming and beating the odds. Over the last few weeks, if I even have a minute of quiet, where my mind isn't thinking about the daily grind, thoughts go straight to cancer. My blessings, the difficulties, the sick and scary days, the smiles and tears and my support group, you! I have been finding myself saying out loud, "I had cancer" over and over again at different times of the day. The thought at times is surreal yet so real... how is that? It totally blows my mind. So unexpected the last year has been.
There are lots of big events coming up in the next month:
* Tomorrow I have an EKG, routine heart check.
* This Thursday is my second to last Herceptin infusion.
* This Friday was the day I self-diagnosed and found my lump. I will be exactly where I was this day last year, at Catalina Island on my familys' boat.
* September 12th, my very last Herceptin.
* September 13th, port surgery...it's getting removed. I hope you can hear the joy in my words! I will soon be able to wear anything I want without a round, hard thing sticking out the side of chest.
* September 15th, Diagnosis Day
So much to be thankful for! Love, Love- K
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