Cancerversary

2 Years.  Check.  Done.  Love!

So intimate, so real, so close yet feels so far away.  Un-believable! Have the last two years really happened?

Since this time last year, I have my Tamoxifen under control, zero cancer treatments with the exceptions of doctors appointments and scans.  Had a set a hardships earlier this year with my health but think I'm good and accepting now of post- cancer living.

What's going on?
+ some restriction with my movement in my shoulder, arm and left side chest but working hard in therapy to repair nerve damage and rotator cuff restrictions
+ tired all the time, sometimes I am drained of energy, like I am 34 living in a 80 year old body. Is being in bed some nights at 8pm too early?
+ working relentlessly  at getting my strength back
+ change has happened with my breast tissue, everything is settling with time.  Considering re-constrution but not sure it is priority.
+ i want my sexy back, seriously!  When I look in the mirror I see courage, but sexy isn't staring back. Confidence is under-rated.... I miss it.

What I know for sure, is that I want to give more to the cancer community this next year, still figuring out how but it is a must. If you have ideas, please pass along.

Most importantly, I still live and love bigger, I appreciate more and wake up everyday so thankful for the day I have before me.

Thank you for being by my side for another year on my journey! This same week last year was so overwhelming wonderful and I have taken a trip down memory lane. I saved all the messages from my dearest friends of love and hope and its been amazing to re-revist and remember.  I had my lovely port removed two days before my cancerversary and had my last Herceptin treatment.  Yeap--- that's one year ago. Shocking, I know.