Spirit

So many amazing people in my life are often telling me that my spirit inspires them.  I love, love the compliment.  It is a choice everyday to focus on the blessings and everything amazing that is coming from my diagnosis.  My friendships have strengthened, I am spending every waking moment with my family, I cherish moments throughout the day, meeting people I would have probably never met and learning so many new things.   

But, I also feel that it's important to say that it's not all happy thoughts, everyday.  There is a part of me that is sad - every day.  There is a part of me that is grieving - every day.  There is a part of me that is scared - every day.

For example; this week has been my most challenging week yet.  I am scared for my third treatment after my last go around.  I wake up everyday, not knowing what new ailment will be present at one point during the day and what I could expect before in life is no longer dependable.   

Speaking of new things that I am learning, my friend Liz (neighbor and dog walking partner in crime) sent me a link to a news article.  Did you know that breast cancer isn't always in the form of a lump?  I had no idea, I thought I was almost a breast cancer expert by now.  Learning something new everyday! 

A young women's story: Click Here

P.S. I worked out for the first time tonight in 2 months.  I don't have full range of motion on my right side because of my port but I did run a short distance.  Felt good! 

XOXO