Get-a-way

I have had a much needed vacation....left for Vegas early Saturday morning and returning tonight. Staying at the Four Season's, relaxing with spa by day and steakhouse by night. I needed some time away from everything; the doctor's appointments and the big "C". Although I have come to realize over the past five days that I can't really get away from it. When I hope to do something that I might have done before wishingf to feel like I did before, to break up treatment routine or to get my mind off what the reality of my life is now; it all brings me back to the reality of my situation. There isn't a get-a-way. Really the many happy moments I have each day when I am smiling, laughing or thinking about how blessed I am to have amazing people in my life- that's when I have a get-a-way from the big "C" and at ease.

Bought some amazing new shoes, all beautiful heels. Wishing that I will want to start wearing them soon. All I want to do is wear sweats lately (splendid leggings, really) and sweat and t-shirts don't look cute with heels. I guess, to give myself a break, I did, only a few weeks ago start wearing shoes again. For what felt like so I long I could only manage slippers because of the pain in my feet. Had a moment this week in Saks, I got more excited about the hat I found than the Jimmy Choos I bought. Never thought that would happen!

Tomorrow is treatment so I will blog in the morning to update you any news from my doctor's appointment. - XOXO