On the Road to Recovery

There were a few bumps in the road during this recovery.  On Thursday night, the night of my infusion I was very sick which was unexpected.  So, I had two extra days on top of my normal 4 that I felt terrible, not to mention it was scary to be getting sick so much earlier than what has been normal.  I had all the typical symptoms of the sterotypical chemo patient; nausea, sickness, exhausted and not eating. 

What are sick days like? dragging myself from the bed to the couch for 5 days following injection of liquid chemicals that both heal and poison. Fatigue from cancer added to exhaustion from treatments is one of the most discouraging sides to this disease. It takes all the energy that I have to put my feet on the floor from the bed and make my way to another place in the house to lay down.  I walk laps in the house which is quite comical, my parents say "round and round she goes..."  It is the only time my body gets exercise and my muscles get the chance to move.  I lay in bed all day, can't watch TV because it makes me dizzy, can't read or talk to anyone and definitely can't sleep, but yet am exhausted so every time I walk I hope that I will become tired enough to sleep but it never really works.  Your body is tired but your mind isn't so I wait, lay, and look out the window.  Rest and sleep has no effect on how I feel. I just feel like lead.  The best way I know how to describe chemo recovery is that your body feels as though it is on its death bed and 5 days later you are healthy and back to living life. Oh and have I mentioned that food and water taste like chemicals?  The world look so different for many days and then it all comes back into focus.  The great news, only one more time that I have to endure this.

On the road to recovery today and hope to be almost myself tomorrow.  XOXO