There has been a gloomy, grey haze over me all this last week and it is going to take all the strength I have in me to get through this next week. While I was on vacation last weekend I felt a lump at the top part of where my tumor once resided. I didn't think much of it until my drive home from work on Monday. First day back from vacation and I guess the reality of what the lump might be smacked me in the face. I quickly made an appointment with my surgeon to take a look at it. The appointment was Friday morning and he has me scheduled for an ultrasound (insert frown here), as he is as curious about the lump as I am. He suggested I travel as planned, do my best to have fun (doctor's orders) and take care of the ultrasound first thing when I return.
The grey, gloomy haze has been interesting, different. The waterworks have been flowing this week. I haven't been this bothered and upset by these type of set-backs yet. So, why now? For those of you who have supported a survivor or are one, how do you best get through scans, lumps, bumps and scares?
What I think is bothering me the most is that I just got life back, a routine and experiences that have nothing to do with doctors. I don't wake up in the morning and go to bed at night thinking about cancer.
I will take this one as it comes, I am putting good energy out into the universe, hoping that my body is healthy because it is all too soon to do this over again...
Love, Love - K
What I think is bothering me the most is that I just got life back, a routine and experiences that have nothing to do with doctors. I don't wake up in the morning and go to bed at night thinking about cancer.
I will take this one as it comes, I am putting good energy out into the universe, hoping that my body is healthy because it is all too soon to do this over again...
Love, Love - K
Thinking of you and sending those good thoughts out there too!! No matter what, you will be great!
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